At nightfall, I mould scraps of experiments
into paper mash puddings
and swallow two balls for dinner.
Two is a complete number;
two for two balls, two for two hands pinned.
Two for two feet held.
Two for two hands holding.
Two for two folds of flesh unfurling,
lips fused in a cavity, unable to keep from
descending into a brushstroke kiss.
A line starts in a point and ends in another,
same as two shades of dreams
on a night without electricity in the house.
My mother calls them nightmares
that must be cast to the past, like a disjointed marriage.
I tell I her I still see nightmares;
like her third husband; a line that begins
and ends in vows.
Be nice and I’ll make you fisher of men.
Each day of silence fetches you a fortune.
He drilled into me with a headlamp on Day 1,
dug for speculated platinum on Day 2, lingering
at tangents between
intersections of rectal walls,
ate two steaks of grilled pork
with his own wetness on Day 3.
Her second husband, skin, the colour of Tom Brown solution,
went extra deep, hymned Amazing Grace all the way,
with semen finding my tongue as a way of escape.
I’m sure he meant to say:
I’m not killing you, boy.
Just making you feel alterations ─
the pathways we discover in little black bodies.